ulala!

n i started writing again.

i've had a blog before but i deleted it due to some reasons. n yes, here i am, blogging, again. wassup y'all? hope everything is doing great for u as it had been on me. love my days n looking forward for the next one. :) i stop writing for a while but i still do read all your post. beware, i'm updated with what are u up to. ngeh! ngeh!

i have a confession but do u call it a confession if u keep it a secret? haha! sometimes there are things that you should say n sometimes there are things that is meant only for you yourself to know( i don't even know if u understand. haha!). i am confuse myself. can i go back to my childhood memories? i need to take few step back(i'm gonna move on juga ok.). I just wanna be that kid sitting at the front row, trying to listen to what the heck the teacher is trying to teach but can't because this stupid kid keep pinching your hand and silly me can't do anything about it because i can't speak chinese (damn u budak-tadika-whom-i-dunno-ur-name! u should feel lucky i don't remember you. haha!).

i miss you. yes. you! will meet all of you real soon. :)

i've had a weird day lately. can't exactly say how weird it is, but it is weird. but it was ok. special thanks to all of you who has brighten my day each n everyday.

i've heard that in order to find ......... you have to throw all the hate inside your heart. i think my heart is almost empty from all the hatred that i used to have. ALMOST! but i still can't throw this one tiny hate inside of me. i just can't. A friend told me that sometimes you just have to let go. and despite it is your fault or not, just say you are sorry. he said, at least you are trying to make things better. if that person doesn't accept, it's not your business anymore. ALLAH knows better. *sigh! i wish i can be that forgiving. oh! fill in the blanks. hehe :)

love,
cik suka-makan-smarties.